Nervous.

Today is the Day!....so long in the coming.....

Showered.... Perfumed....a light...giving scent....a warm...inviting
caress to the senses...but not enough to cover the scent of anticipation....mixing...the
air around me Chanel...womanscent.....desire growing...and the hands moving
across the face of the clock impossibly slow.....staring...willing time
to pass.......

and it stands still......

my hand going nervously to the soft curls at my shoulders....finger
twirling......feeling the silk wrap....then slide through my fingers.......a
silent prayer that He come soon.....figiting in my chair.....sliding right...then
left......hearing the music play softly in the background.....subconsious
playing His words through my mind again....and again.....His voice the
one i hear in my head.....His desires racing ...hot...through my blood.....the
song from the cd....mear static.....

60 seconds have passed......

i look down......at the garment i have chosen to please him......

silk of deepest black....soft....giving to the touch.....breasts trimmed
in lace.....dainty.....gently caressing.....my nipples standing hard.....straining
against the soft material......tiny buds flaming with the need to be touched....tortured
by his hand.....his lips....teeth......an involuntary rush of air from
my lungs...a soft moan..... as i again shift in the chair....silk sliding
over the hardened nubs.....bringing a tremble rushing through my body......

35 seconds have passed......slow...time.....silently begging 
the Master of A/all....
silently pleading....
for Time to hurry....

two years known to me......touched....felt......craved....desires raging......hours
passed whispering of lives separate......yet brought together each day......Him....the
most intimate of strangers......so many secrets shared.....trust building....painfully
slow...this knowing......the discoveries treasured....riches in the knowledge
beyond gold.....yearning grown....the sweet blossom unfolding with each
spoken word.......the ache within stretching it's power through the connections
of wire and light....electricity and motherboard......known only through
words....spoken....tentitive play in the beginning.....soon leaving the
fantasy.....and talking of lives......

Arghhhh!...cursing silently.....another minute has crawled by!.....time!!!
Hurry! please! my plea to the Master....

The warmth...growing between my thighs.....feeling the slickness of
my nether as i move in the chair once again.....the scent of my need overpowering
now...even the hint of perfume gone.....i sense only the desire raging
in my body.....to touch...to taste......

a loud rapping!!...breaking harshly into my thoughts.....shaking.....my
legs rubber.....my knees weak....already!....heart racing.....!!!....breath
coming in a gasp!....i know He awaits....there at the door....rushing.....feet
flying....but coherent thought gone....in the anticipation.....the yearning.....

my hand turning the doorknob....twisting....standing to the back of
the door as i open......fear rushing....filling my soul.....what???? 
how to greet Him?
do i kneel?
can i look up to Him?....
do i ????
ohhhgoddddddddddddd!!! too late...
too late..........shaking...violently.....croaking....voice
weak......soft.....such fear...overwhelming.......

time has stopped.....i stand there...
behind the door an eternity......panic....thick.....
heart thudding.....breath held.....mind racing.....too many what ifs!!!.....
and the sound.....slow...dull....His footfalls....crossing the threshold....
my hand still gripping the knob.....mind...reason gone....fight or flight.....
and the door being gently pulled from my hand.......

on my knees....my head bowed.....eyes open...staring down...
seeing nothing......hearing...only the thudding of my heart.....
and then the feel of His finger....gliding along my jawline.....
as He had done so many ....
so very many times in words across a screen.....
or whispered softly in my ear......
a gasp....a heat explodes within me......
as He tilts my head up....drawing my eyes to His.......
the vision of Him......finally...oh god finally feeling that sweet touch........

my eyes...at long last....gazing...into His......